到了十九嵗，現在的我，生活態度變了十級的多，　變了十級串，也變了成熟了

以前的我，無時無刻都會十級容易地感到快樂，與朋友一起放學，吃飯。。買到自己喜歡的東西，我都會很快樂，我縂覺得人與人之間從來不需要有秘密，有什麽事就說，不開心，氣的時候我都會第一時間同人分享。這就是小朋友的童真和世界。。。

但到了現在，年幾月來月大，月來月多事情發生，我發覺人與人之間是必須存在秘密的，開心的，我會同人分享。不開心的，　我是從不分享。不開心的東西，我一直都認爲不需要跟人分享，　因為我從來不認爲朋友或親友會100%明白我不開心的地方，他們不是我，沒有人會明白。但是，當我朋友不開心的時候，我又很想他們可以跟我講，因為我覺得人不開心的時候是十級慘的。

我覺得這個世上大部份人都和我一樣把。。永遠把最不真實十級樂觀的自己給人加看

(to be continued).......

my grandmom has been dead for a year now...lol.....whenever i thought of her, both of my legs seriouy can't stand, i am saying this for real. the energy of my legs suddenly went away all the time... WHY? lol. i miss my grandmom. after my grandmom's death, i had started to realize a lot things in the world are not that important for me as before, school, works....etc...a lot alot of things that were used to be very imporatant to me suddenly become very much less crucial....during this one year..i dearmt of my grandmom over thousands of times. whenever i saw her in my dreams, my heart always started to beat very very fast....-_-
everyone has to die, and me too...maybe very soon ...HA.. life is like that

love is a mystery....
i think i am too young and i don't know how to love...
i love everyone around me..but i know those loves i give out are definitely not the "Relationship" love...
being in relationship is stressed stressed and wordless..i don;t like to be in a relationship.....-_-

family> friends > husband... LOL

hates can be slowly converted to love, and love can always be generated.......

i always want to love people, and i am always trying to love everyone around me ..but.....this world is always stopping me to love because when i always find some very ugly sides from people..,,,,,,,,,,,,whenever i found them.....I halted. halted to love. and started to stop loving.......
why? why everyone has two faces,,,the face shown in front of others and the dark side that we can't know until many ages later ? LOLL

just an hour ago, i tried Mcdonald Ice coffeee...that was a totalll wrong decision!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am having big big serious headache nowwwwww..shoot, caffeine seriously makes me sickk..=(
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no more caffeine in my life..haha.